I have a story to tell and I'm gonna tell it...

So this is kind of like the reason to it all. To all my creativity. Everything that's been inside of me all the time. The core of myself. This is the time. I'm finally ready. To put my work out there..  and just to remind myself. I'm not doing this for attention. This is me. This is my way of healing myself through all I'm going through. This is something that comes so natural for me. It's like the words just come to me and I have to write them down, cause if I don't I know they will somehow slip away real quick and get all tangled up in my crowded brain. And it's actually the first time somebody is reading it too, so ofcourse it's a scary thing. I mean this is my personal diary that I'm putting out there. Because somehow I know I need to do it. If I could inspire someone or make them feel less lonely in their heartbreaks or their struggles in life that comes with high sensitivity or depression it would mean the world to me.

Well I have always been writing, since the age of 6 years old I've been writing diarys. Back then I remember I wrote for my older self, to remember all the fun moments and good things when I'm old lying on my bed and probably have forgotten about all the things I've been through. Then my old house burned down and all my diaries too. So guess I still wont remember shit! Haha! 

But my writing has also been a way for me to handle all the sad and tough times in my life, just because It really have felt good and made me see things in different perspective. Then I somehow ended writing, probably cause I just didn't prioritize it and just got in this early grown-up years when you're partying all the time and just do all the fun stuff. But then I moved away to a new city and life catched up on me. And because of all the things I went through I needed to really vent it out too. And my writing started all over again, and when things got really hard it became all neccessary for me. The words just never seemed to stop flow. And my writing became more of a creative kind and a lot more poetic than before.

I always thought of maybe putting my words out there, but always been too afraid of what people might think and say. But I've somehow finally come to the point where I feel ready. I'm going to mix both Swedish and English, because sometimes I'm thinking in English and sometimes in Swedish. But I ain't as comfortable writing in English cause it's not my mother language, so hope you have patience with me. Well I have a story to tell and I'm gonna tell it.

Here is my story...

- SOULELL -